Happenings Of My Life

I always find fascinating and weird things about my life . And this time it is about a feeling which i have discovered few years ago. I have this weird feeling that i can somehow control my future and from my experiences i found it that i hav this power to control the future. But the worst part is that i dont know how to use it.The power can be described like this "What ever i think or expect,it will not happen".Even though i discovered this power 2 years before , i never understood it fully. I am a day dreamer and always dream of high achievements and ideal cases . I cant control thinking high about me and this weird power as it stands always pulls me to the ground. I have tested very minor cases of this power and it has always worked for me. But majorly this power of mine had caused more damage to my dreams than i could imagine.when I was in my upper schooling I made this habit of making schedules .So i started thinking about every small task I would perform that day.. and as i said none of my would match what i have imagined about how i would perform .They contradict themselves or differ greatly. That is how I got acquainted with my powers. It had become a habit of me then to keep trying often and never succeed when I had not discovered this power because as I already i cannot control imagining myself great whenever i get the opportunity to do so. After that I had and I still have tough time fighting myself not to think the future (Even now I am imagining myself a great blogger even though this is my third or fourth blog).This is not the end to my story I think i hav another power which i havent mentioned.this power is described as
"if i find something new and i dont hav the wildest thought that i will see it again,
then somehow i either get to see it or hear it by any means be it a newspaper or any sort of thing i will see or hear it again". this second power is ok for me though i dont to control it ,it doesnot do much harm for me. this just leaves me of fascination ,i have never controlled this power of mine but it leaves me with mere hope