Happenings Of My Life

I always find fascinating and weird things about my life . And this time it is about a feeling which i have discovered few years ago. I have this weird feeling that i can somehow control my future and from my experiences i found it that i hav this power to control the future. But the worst part is that i dont know how to use it.The power can be described like this "What ever i think or expect,it will not happen".Even though i discovered this power 2 years before , i never understood it fully. I am a day dreamer and always dream of high achievements and ideal cases . I cant control thinking high about me and this weird power as it stands always pulls me to the ground. I have tested very minor cases of this power and it has always worked for me. But majorly this power of mine had caused more damage to my dreams than i could imagine.when I was in my upper schooling I made this habit of making schedules .So i started thinking about every small task I would perform that day.. and as i said none of my would match what i have imagined about how i would perform .They contradict themselves or differ greatly. That is how I got acquainted with my powers. It had become a habit of me then to keep trying often and never succeed when I had not discovered this power because as I already i cannot control imagining myself great whenever i get the opportunity to do so. After that I had and I still have tough time fighting myself not to think the future (Even now I am imagining myself a great blogger even though this is my third or fourth blog).This is not the end to my story I think i hav another power which i havent mentioned.this power is described as
"if i find something new and i dont hav the wildest thought that i will see it again,
then somehow i either get to see it or hear it by any means be it a newspaper or any sort of thing i will see or hear it again". this second power is ok for me though i dont to control it ,it doesnot do much harm for me. this just leaves me of fascination ,i have never controlled this power of mine but it leaves me with mere hope

My Philosophical Madness

Life for me is pretty much complicated.From the day i was born , i was very much fascinated with my life .I started to think the purpose of my life.I was fascinated to learn many facts about the Universe around me and was becoming more and more philosophical.From then onwards , i thought about almost everything which put a question which varies from the life,god n the everlasting universe across me.Then one day i found that "Everything has its own advantages and disadvantages".Being encouraged by my friends i found one more principle "Every thing in this world is relative.Nothing is absolute". After my own philosophical advances i became fascinated with every weird thought i came across and formed one more theory"We r advancing in technology slowly n slowly.But one day we will build a universe where we r living now".
this theory says that we r actually advancing in technology n one day we will finally build a universe on which we r living right now.... May be we r creators of our own past ,may be we r the cause of our own existence ,may be we r our own God. But it all makes no sense right.Then i got real hard in to philosophy n i found one more theory "I am the only one in this Universe. All others r born for me, to test me,to make me stay on this world n not let me escape".May be i am being pulled down.
May be i am compelled to live in this earth. and if this theory of mine is right ,they r successful as i m not willin to escape as much as i am then. After this one i have made many more trivial philosophies that i got really mad with what i should believe in , because each of my theories contradicts one another and each one is pretty convincing to my mind.Then i thought about much more fundamental questions of whether there should compulsorily an answer to a question??